today is brought to you by the number 4

Well here we are in round 428 of being broken. I'm not really sure if it's round 428 but it sure as heck feels like it. This round has me on 4 little pills each night, and soemthing about 4 little pills makes me throw up at 4 am. That right there is enough to make me crazy. For some reason I've been mentally taking it harder the last few cycles. I think it really just means I need a vacation :) *hint,hint* I think it's been mentally harder because it's been physically harder. Each round is worse than the last and this one goes on for 12 l-o-n-g days. In the end though no matter how hard it is, I will truly appreciate my kids and how cherish every step they take. Children are a great blessing that are put here to show others how to be unselfish, love deeply, and of course to smooch! I will always understand what it is to want to be a parent, how hard it hurts, and how much special little people mean, because I am not promised to every have a baby. I don't need sympathy, I 'm not here for anyone to feel sorry for me. I just need encouragement. I am blessed everyday to right where I am, it's not easy but there are wonderful people that care enough to hold my hand. I have no regrets, I wouldn't change anything and I will continue forward! Up next, daily injections!

Life Observation

1. I think part of a best friend's job should be to immediately clear your computer history if you die.
 
2. Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you realize you're wrong.
 
3. I totally take back all those times I didn't want to nap when I was younger.
 
4. There is great need for a sarcasm font.
 
5. How the hell are you supposed to fold a fitted sheet?
 
6. Was learning cursive really necessary?
 
7. Map Quest really needs to start their directions on #5. I'm pretty sure I know how to get out of my neighborhood.
 
8. Obituaries would be a lot more interesting if they told you how the person died.
 
9. I can't remember the last time I wasn't at least kind of tired.
 
10. Bad decisions make good stories.
 
11. You never know when it will strike, but there comes a moment at work when you know that you just aren't going to do anything productive for the rest of the day.
 
12. Can we all just agree to ignore whatever comes after Blue Ray? I don't want to have to restart my collection...again.
 
13. I'm always slightly terrified when I exit out of Word and it asks me if I want to save any changes to my ten-page research paper that I swear I did not make any changes to.
 
14. "Do not machine wash or tumble dry" means I will never wash this - ever.
 
15. I hate when I just miss a call by the last ring (Hello? Hello?), but when I immediately call back, it rings nine times and goes to voice mail. What did you do after I didn't answer? Drop the phone and run away?
 
16. I hate leaving my house confident and looking good and then not seeing anyone of importance the entire day. What a waste.
 
17. I keep some people's phone numbers in my phone just so I know not to answer when they call.
 
18. I think the freezer deserves a light as well.
 
19. I disagree with Kay Jewelers. I would bet on any given Friday or Saturday night more kisses begin with Miller Lite than Kay.
 
20. I wish drivers in the slow lane would speed up and drivers in the fast lane would slow down.
 

21. Sometimes, I'll watch a movie that I watched when I was younger and suddenly realize I had no idea what the heck was going on when I first saw it.
 
22. I would rather try to carry 10 plastic grocery bags in each hand than take 2 trips to bring my groceries in.
 
23. The only time I look forward to a red light is when I'm trying to finish a text. 

24. I have a hard time deciphering the fine line between boredom and hunger.  

25. How many times is it appropriate to say "What?" before you just nod and smile because you still didn't hear or understand a word they said?
 
26. I love the sense of camaraderie when an entire line of cars team up to prevent a jerk from cutting in at the front. Stay strong, brothers and sisters!
 
27. Shirts get dirty. Underwear gets dirty. Pants? Pants never get dirty, and you can wear them forever.
 
28. Is it just me or do high school kids get dumber & dumber every year?
 
29. There's no worse feeling than that millisecond you're sure you are going to die after leaning your chair back a little too far.
 
30. As a driver I hate pedestrians, and as a pedestrian I hate drivers, but no matter what the mode of transportation, I always hate cyclists.
 
31. Sometimes I'll look down at my watch 3 consecutive times and still not know what time it is.
 
32. Even under ideal conditions people have trouble locating their car keys in a pocket, finding their cell phone, and Pinning the Tail on the Donkey - but I'd bet everyone can find and push the snooze button from 3 feet away, in about 1.7 seconds, eyes closed, first time, every time!

4 years ago today

I married my wonderful husband in the cutest little outdoor ceremony. There was even a firetruck :) 18 days after I became Mrs. DWG I got to do my first wifey duty and I stood in an airport and watched him get on an airplane to an un-disclosed location in you-know-where (hell would also fit well there). 2 overseas deployments and half of our marriage in another place we are stronger than ever. Walking everyday in faith with hope that the rest of our wildest dreams will come true.

It's a bug spray kind of day!

I am having a pretty off kind of day. My brain is swirling with a million different things and I want to get them out...they however want to stay. Dang thoughts! They're like those gnats you get in the summer time that you swing and swing at until you get so pissed that you go inside. So today I sit here with my "gnats".
Now don't get me wrong I get out my bug spray and kill those little things every so often but the strong ones keep getting back up. Dang things! Infertility is a crappy awful thing, it makes you think about things that you shouldn't have to think about. It makes you nervous and unable to be excited about a new life growing inside of you. So today I sit here with thoughts of miscarriages, babies, unkind people, and soda. Hopefully the hours I have spent on my knees crying and pleading with God to make my dreams come true will produce more than rung burns. Until that glorious day comes, I'm going to hang out with my bug spray and maybe try one of those electric flyswatters.