Is it really 03/04/2011?

I think that time is moving way to rapidly. I don't really have much to update since most people are in the know. I'm still waiting for a baby to fall out of the sky and be mine forever (ours, ours, ours, I never was good at sharing). I miss Chevy Dog more each day, I laid by my great-grandmother's bed everyday for what felt like forever. The difference is that she decided when it was time, I did not. An amazing amount of stress left me when it was all over with. I hope that he's up their keeping my babies safe until I get there. Myabe one day this will be a busy place full of even more random posts and pictures without faces or even better, pictures with faces! In the meantime enjoy the new blog, ingrone the header it's being hateful, and come back soon!

Life

Hello Blog! This Princess has been super busy. I can't believe how in one instant our whole lives changed forever. I always thought that instant would be a third pregnancy or finally getting to hold our brand new gift from the water walker himself. But this time the instant was tragic, I totally saw it coming, I knew in my gut what that appointment was for. When all the words started coming out of her mouth I got dizzy and I felt the hot tears. How could she be saying this, to me, the princess. The girl who didn't go to college so she could have babies, the girl who has an extra room that is waiting to be covered in pink or blue. But she did and after she said all those words she said another (more like 5-10), surgery. Surgery, drilling, anethesia, burning... um, omg, keep your knife away from me, k thanks. So ya, I left my fertility dr with impending surgery and birth control. I wish I could go back to the days where my Coach was filled with sperm, needles, and vials of hormones that cost more than my entire outfit and my truck payment. She did say I have about 6 years before my body will not reposnd well to IVF. Either way, no babies are going to be made around here for awhile. Instead, I'm going to purchase one that has already been baked to perfection. It is going to be difficult to do this and I know it but I will have peace in knowing that a child was loved, fed, and wanted while it was in my home. They are not even here yet and they already have a grandma, grandpa, granny, pappy, greats, aunts, uncles, cousins, that loved them. I do worry about my little niece and nephew and how they'll do but they know Auntie loves them the most (K tells everyone) so I don't worry as much.

Hello Hello!

Let me tell you what a weekend we have had! I worked all of one day last week, poor me right :) Between appts, throwing up, and fried pies I have has zero down time. In fact right now at 11:01pm I am suppossed to doing an assignment that is due in two hours, yet here I am, blogging...at least I'm blowing the dust off my blog right? Anyway our meeting on Monday so did not go well, I thought I was going to get my hand held as we skipped down the yellow brick road and then signed on the dotted line. N-O-T even close! I was handed MORE paperwork to fill out. Either way I was slightly heartbroken and felt a little defeated. Then throwing up, seriously those girls that do it for fun are skinny, I pay good money to throw up and yet, my butt is HUGE. I did only have to take two doses! Suck on that you eight nasty little devil pills. Friday I drug my crabby butt out of bed and when to church to help the ladies with the fried pie fundraiser. OhEmGee!! I had no idea what I was getting myself into, I spent the next eight-ish hours rolling dough into circles and having hot flashes. I love those girls though, they keep me so grounded and are beyond real. Not to mention funny and ca-ute! But my proudest point of the weekend was when I, L.A.G got myself out of bed at 3:40am and was at church by 5am. GO MEEEE!! We spent the rest of the day filling pies while the Pastor Man fried them. There was more sleep deprived giggles than anything else of the day. At one point someone drank coffee thinking it was tea, a sweet lady said she "need a change of scenery", and the pastor's wife "good gamed me" while I was taking a drink. (my cheek stung for like 10 mins!). Overall we raised over 1250 bucks for our revival. I came home and took a two hour nap, only to be awaked by my loving husband going "whatcha doing", well I was sleeping....today instead of doing my very important assignment (the one I'm now blogging instead of doing) we got a bisuit, set up some lights, went for a ride, set up a flag pole, visited with my favorite, and ate fried pies. WHEW!!! What happened to my relaxing Sunday?

One of those days

I hate when the day starts out like any other then turns into one of THOSE days. Being told how awful I was, was more than I can take. Call me rude, mean, snotty, whatever you want, I don't care. But to hear you're the most awful person sucks. I know that people feel that way but they normally show it by their actions, ignoring, pretending I don't exisit, you know, but to flat out have the balls to say it to my face. Wow, you rock old lady with chicken wing arms. Funny thing is, the woman that said it was pretty much a stranger. People that hate other people usually don't have a reason. There are about five people that truly hate me and none of them have any reason. Half I care that they are ugly and hateful and the other half makes me smile :) I''m going to drown myself in my 7 chapters, 2 worksheets, 1 disscussion question, 8 posts, and my power point on the gastrointestinal system. I know that power point will make someone else feel hate towards me ;)Either wayeven if it was one of those days at least the old hag had the balls to say how she felt.

Cookie, Cookies, and Cookies

It's cookie-tastic around here! I LOVE baking cookies and lately I've been all about the rolled sugar cookies. The only problem is they also need to be iced and my hot flashes don't work well with royal icing in a pastry bag. We had a death in our Military Family (a wife's daddy) and so Mrs. OD asked if people would bring stuff. So I whipped up a batch of Toll House (60+) and a yummy Pioneer Woman "lasagna". Then I of course made another batch of Toll House for some fabulous friends. I am cookied out! That is until DWG tells me last night that his guys sure do love cookies and "we" should bake them some for their exercise. So here goes round 2 and 3 this week! Oatmeal Raisin and Peanut Butt Butter. Good thing I have a fabulous new apron to wear!

Day 1

I think that yesterday brought me the biggest heartbreak that I've had since my babies went to Heaven. I don't understand how everything looks perfect and I give up Coke Zero, then it doesn't work. I'm not ready to give up and quit but I am feeling beat the heck down. I want my humor and my life back. Instead all I can think about is the incredible pain I'll be in in 12 days. So today I am drinking my last Coke Zero again and jumping in with both feet, getting my hopes up, and hopfully in the end the only thing that hurts is my knees from praying like my life depends on it.

Semi-Wordless Wednesday

Day 14~A non-fictional book

Currently I am reading several non-ficitonal books
1. The Bible
2. Medical Terminology
3. Longing for a Child <---My BFF got me this, love it!

Day 13~A fictional book

Who the crap has time to read a book? The closest thing I get to a fictional book these days is the gossip mag at the checkstand. Weak post but it's true...

Day 12~Something you are OCD about

Really? I mean wouldn't this be a better post if it was "Something you aren't OCD about", it would certainly be shorter...
I am OCD about my clothes being hung up by sleeve length and color, my shoes being perfectly lined up in the closet, the dishes being in perfect order in the cabinet, the food being the same way, the towels being folded in a certain way....I could go on and on and on...

Day 11~A photo of me recently

I was haing a decent hair day

Day 10~A photo of me 10 years ago

Hello Barbie Dream House!

So maybe this is a little more than 10 years ago but not much ;)

Day 9~A photo I took

I love this photo <3 You can see the pure happiness in her little eyes.

She's also wearing her "I love my auntie" shirt.

Day 8~A photo that makes me sad

Let me start with this, I was sitting here thinking about things that make me angry/sad. Natgurally baby killing comes to mind. Like a freaking huge moron I just wne to google images and typed in "abortion". I will regret those 3 seconds of my life forever....

Day 7~A photo that makes you happy

ah look at us, back in the day

This was before we got married, before we found out the pcos,

before we had to change our dreams

and before I went from chunky to fat

Day 6~20 of my favorite things

I'm almost giddy! I think this is my favortie post so far.

1. Pink~If it comes in pink i'll take it!
2. My BlackBerry~that girl is always by my side
3. Pictures~there is no better way to capture a memory
4. Family~they rock and are so very supportive
5. Shoes~I currently own about 165 pairs...and growing!
6. Old Navy flip flops~perfect fit everytime
7. Caprese Salad~raw perfection
8. Eggs Benedict~un-avaialble in Oklahoma
9. Shopping~ the cure all for whatever is going on
10. Mani/Pedis~aaahhhh
11. Texting~the perfect way to multi task
12. Giggling~talk about making your heart feel light
13. Getting my hair cut~It's always super fabulous after it's been cut up
14. Shopping~I love it that much :)
15. Baking~Feeding people makes me happy
16. Amazing Grace, sang by Bro Bobby~No music jsut his raw voice at altar call
17. My puppies~My 3 adorable furry children
18. Flowers~Calla Lillies are it but I love them all, except Easter Lillies
19. Getting packages in the mail~always from my Mama and full of love<3
20. God~Not that He's last but that he knows the ending

Day 5~Favorite Quote

This 30 days of posts is provining to be more difficult than I thought it would be. How on Earth do I narrow down to just ONE!? AS far as quotes go I have a million that would love to use but I think that my hands down favorite would have to be...

Life's Ugly, Accesorize!

Day 4~Favorite Book

When I was younger I loved to read books. I could get a new book and read it in one day if I enjoyed it. Now, I'm lucky to get through a People in the grocery line. I spend more time reading school books than anything. But to narrow it down a few years ago my wonderful husband bought me the most adorable pink and brown study Bible. The Bible is pretty much intimidating to just jump into but this has notes and breakdowns all located right on my thin little page. So my all time favorite book has to go to my life manual and it doesn't hurt that it's fabulous in pink and brown!

Day 3~Favorite TV Show

OMG! Hello! This is a no brainer. Real Housewives of OC and New Jersey. Seriously, there is a NEED that I feel to watch those every week. I wish there was one on every day <3 I do miss the OG cast of the OC, they were much more "housewife like" either way, Bravo sucks me and besides my texts to my twin, nothing else goes on for that hour.

Day 2~Favorite Movie

This is a hard one too! There are so many funny movies that I adore. I think that my all time favorite would have to be Sweet Home Alabama. Love you girl!